summer 2008

changed me.

in an unexplainable, huge way.
I have new habits. I have new friends. hell, i even have new hair.
nothing's the same.

and i can't say i don't love it. because i do. It's so exciting, all the new, different things in my life.

I gained a lot this summer. but I also lost a lot.

and sometimes, i lost the things I gained, and i think that was the hardest part of them all.

given something great, something amazing. then having it be taken from you before you even got a chance to get used to it. that's got to be all kinds of cruel. But I'm dealing with it. hopefully, things will change. soon.

I absolutely love my best friend Danielle. I've never had a friend that i cared about this much, except Lauren. and I know she doesn't exactly feel the same, but i don't even care. It's given me something that makes me happy.

everything that has changed this summer is too much to be confined into words. they just have to show, their beauty shining through.
I wish i took more pictures. because as they say, a picture is worth a thousand words.

am i the only one that finds it ironic that the night i was so hell-bent on getting pictures with riley & danielle, was the last night we all hung out? yes, irony at its best. good thing i'm so camera obsessed.

anyway, its fabulous to think of whats changed this summer, in a good way. but at the same time its heartwrenching to think of whats changed, in a bad way.

i've lost 2 friends that were really important to me. i've grown apart from many more friends, that i just don't make time for anymore. and that's no ones' fault but my own.

i've always loved palm harbor. but this year, i'm going back alone. with no one beside me. it's scary. i just want to be going to the same school as my friends.

we'll see how everything turns out. but i'm scared to death.